those i defend, i do not love

all i wanted was this:

and this:

(more or less)

and now i get none.

fuck my
job

fuck my
birthday.

fuck my
life.

the end.

i wanna make you shine for me.

i've come to the conclusion that

we make

sense.

sick like sid and nancy

um.

if American women are flies then,

Jamaican men are sugar water

because

as, of June 5th, i acquired a step-dad.

[shit.]

O_o

they only want you when you're seventeen, when you're 21 , you're no fun.

another rainy day in NYC.

it's pouring, literally hurricane conditions.

i nearly crapped myself a minute ago because of some thunder

that set off every car alarm on the block.

[i hope my mom's flight from JA comes in alright...]

so, it's been a while since my last post [over a month ago]

not much has changed execpt that

i may or may not be gainfully employed this summer,

which sucks major bollocks.

errr.
oh !
i made a shelf and table

with which i am extremely proud of =]

[pictures to come later on, maybe ?]

i guess that's it for now.

yes, i know, totally uneventful

such is life.

=]

i wanna take you out tonight, i wanna make you feel alright

8 ways to win my heart.

1. roses.
any color.
any type.

2. chocolate covered pretzels.

3. random walks in a general direction.

4. sticky icky ickyyy.
XD

5. humor
and lots of it.

6. family guy
and family guy references.

7. bear hugs.

8. love notes.

baby, i know you do that to all the girls.

Nine things about me :

1. i'm tall.

very, very tall.

2. i have alot of birthmarks and

i can locate all of them.

3. i like bright colors and rainbows.

they make me smile.

no homo.

4. i have a pet cat.

5. i love my bike more than my cat.

it doesn't scratch me when i try to bathe it.

6. i love my bed more than my bike.

7. i have two settings :

loud

&

inaudible

8. secretly, i'm a hopeless romantic,

in the cheesiest way

[the kind that wishes everyday were valentine's day

or christmas.]

9. i've been told i can sing,

but i seldom do unless i feel bad

or

when i'm done up.

to be continued...

as my guitar gently weeps.

10 Things I Would Like To Say/Share

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People

(but don't say their name).

1. iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.

that's all.

2. i could never imagine my life without you.

you're the ham to my burger.

the peanut to my butter.

the cheese on my baguette AND the jelly on my bread.

my sister forever.

3. mannn, what can't i say about you?

you're without a doubt thee wildest person i've met to date

and the only one who i truly can say

goes above and beyond my "WOW" factor.

i'm proud to be your partna.

4.we've had or ups and down down downs

but in the end,

i really value our friendship and

i'd never want to exclude you from my life.

come on, there's a spot in my heart [and pants]

that only you can fill.

5. you are and will probably remain

the worst thing to ever happen to me.

even still,

i could never hate you

[though i should]

6. i'm sorry

doesn't even begin to cover what i want to express to you.

i admit that i really fucked up, multiple times.

i just wish i could've expressed my feelings to you early on.

maybe things would be different...

7. do you wonder how i'm doing ?

do ever think of me at all ?

do you even love me ?

8. only you have the power to

make me want to commit homicide

or commit suicide.

but if i had to choose,

i'd still pick you..

right after angelina jolie.

love you.

9. you're most selfless person i know.

it's cheesy but

"when i grow up, i wanna be just like you !"

my idol and role model

[no, not amy wino]

10. i wish i could remember your face.

your perfume.

your loving embrace.

you.

[especially since, you're the reason i sing

and know the words to kumbuya]

to be continued...